You have panic attacks rage paranoia and you episodes where loose it to scream hit your fists on things or kick walls ect maybe bash a broom while crying what wrong with you?

I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling with these emotional and behavioral symptoms. It's important to seek help from a mental health professional who can assess you and provide you with appropriate support and treatment. They will be able to conduct an evaluation and provide an accurate diagnosis, as many factors contribute to these experiences, including various mental health conditions. Self-diagnosis can be inaccurate and harmful. Seeking professional help can help you understand the underlying causes and find the most effective strategies for managing these issues.